2013

This is a year i thought i will never get to, for some weird reason i presumed Jesus would have come. He sure is taking His time...

This year is different for me, well people say that all the time but for me, it is different. This is the year i discover who i really am.

I grew up too fast, too early and too strong. I shut out people, well everybody but loved them and showed them by being there.

2012 was confusing, i made friends, lost friends and made more. I discovered who i could be but not who i am. I let myself gloat, fail and i've started accepting compliments (strange still).

What goes on in my head scares me, what i don't think of amuses me but this year, I will push myself. I have to. Many a people wax lyrical about how 'I' made them do stuff.. I haven't done anything to improve me. So this year i will do all that.

1. Master Arc GIS..

2. Clothe me and feel like the gorgeous Nwa Ori that i am - well this is a journey.

3. Talk more not ramble, talk more.

4. Learn pidgin and Igbo (lose my accent - again)

5. Read novels again - Yea not 1 in a day like before, but one in a week .. Not just what i used to read, try more literature (true sense of the word)

6> Put me first, as easy as this is to write down, but yea - this year i wil do that..

7. I shall learn not to Procastinate.. My Lord!!! I shall do everything i set out to do.. God help me

I speak too much of the truth most times, people find it unnerving. I deviate from me so as not to show me,this doesn't make sense at all but yea, i know what i speak off.

I was told recently that i am an attention seeker and i give out too much information about me, hmmm - I really don't know but i would watch it....

2013 is going to be different.. It has to be, i wil read more and embrace this geek that i have pushed aside. People see it, i refuse it, well i have no choice, i might not be book smart but i sure as hell am smart. So yes, i will learn everything that i can and should. I will let myself know what i can, i won't shy away from the 'How do you know these things question'? anymore - I will let myself be great.. I will accept the nice things people say about me, i will..

It is going to be Scary, but by God's grace, i think i am ready to be the butterfly i can be.

The cocoon was good, cosy, comfortable - now well, yea. This is going to be hard..

2012 - Thanks for your confusion, for in the midst of it all you gave me clarity..

2013- I was not expecting you, but i expect much from you..